Wednesday

Ok, so here we are. Hump day... virtual nothingness to do. Well... yeah I could be cleaning house and putting away clutter, cleaning litter boxes and cooking. Maybe mowed the yard, but did I? NO. It's her night off and she's not here. I came home and she was here but we had an agreement. She went to work tonight, to make extra money so we can go do things. I feel so guilty. I feel as if I'm not holding up my end of the deal. Don't make enough money to cover the bills, and MOM in her infinite widsom hasn't held up her end of the bargan. I told her there was no way I'd be able to afford this house on my salary, not with a new car and all the bills. But no I agreed with her, that I'd move in a pay for everything else if she'd help with groceries, gas, extras for the car, oil changes, tires, etc. Where does that leave me? Working my ass off to pay all these freaking bills and no time or money to do anything fun! So now my girlfriend who didn't ask to be in the middle of this is now working all these extra hours to help hold up my end of the stick. God I love her but it makes me feel inadequate (sp) I can only hope that us both working our asses off will pay off in the long run, we'll get some of these debts paid off and still be able to have a little fun once in a while, and save money for a rainy day.